Why am I here? The Adventure of Discovery
I have done literally hundreds of readings for people of all ages and the most frequently asked question is “Why am I here? What am I supposed to be doing with my life?” The answers that come are never the ones my clients are looking for, however, because much of the learning done by the soul in each incarnation has to do with the process of discovery.
I worked closely for several years with a very talented psychic who teased me unmercifully for a period of time when I was trying to recall a particular life in ancient times during which I felt certain I had lived. “I know who you are!” she would tease, and then refuse to say another word about it. It frustrated me so much that I worked even harder in meditation and self-hypnosis to discover the answer. It took a few months, but soon I was able to give her the name and details of that life so long ago, details that matched the information that she had been picking up on me all along.
Had my friend told me the name and details when I asked, she would have deprived me of the pleasure of discovering the information on my own. Once I had the details, she verified them, but if she had told me those details, I would never have been sure that I actually recalled the information rather than created the details to correlate with what I had been given. So, when my clients ask me to tell them their life’s purpose, I must defer to the wisdom of their spiritual higher self that discloses information at the proper time and in the right amount for their current spiritual level.
What kind of learning and soul development might a person expect in life? That depends on the person and the goals agreed upon by the person and his group of angels, teachers, and guides before birth. There are certain karmic situations that can be rectified providing the circumstances and fellow earthy participants are, or will be, in place. In other words, to resolve a karmic pattern between former spouses, for example, both souls must be incarnated at the same time.
Maggie was married in a previous lifetime to her twin soul, a love match that happens very infrequently. They were supposed to have lived a very long time and grown old together. She was widowed when her husband was accidentally killed, leaving her alone and pregnant. She was spiritually advanced and intelligent enough to understand that it was a situation that provided her a real chance for growth. Emotionally, however, her heart felt abandoned and betrayed. She became angry with him for leaving her and swore never to forgive him for abandoning her.
In the current lifetime, Maggie and her soul mate are again husband and wife. She has had a real problem with abandonment issues in the marriage. Her husband absolutely adores her and has done all within his power to reassure her of his presence. She has had to struggle with the fear of again being abandoned in this lifetime. During the years when they had their babies, she faced the fear that he would be involved in an accident, or succumb to a heart attack like his father. Though she never became obsessive or paranoid, the fear lingered at the back of her mind. Because of this, she refused to allow herself to feel deeply the immense love and devotion for her husband that he demonstrated to her. She tried to keep her heart aloof so if he were taken from her, it wouldn’t hurt quite so much.
Maggie explored that previous lifetime during regression and in subsequent meditative sessions. She was finally able to forgive her husband for leaving her so unexpectedly in that lifetime and began to trust that this lifetime it was safe to open her heart to his love without the fear that had paralyzed her heart for years. Maggie and her husband have been married for thirty-five years now and she is at last at peace and content in their relationship.
Maggie was able to resolve this karmic situation because her husband was present in this lifetime and supported her, whether consciously or not, through the process of discovery and resolution. This could not have happened if her husband’s soul had not been incarnated at the same time.
I remember a woman who was puzzled as to what she could yet need to learn. She had reached her late fifties and was astute at seeing the issues that her friends and family members were dealing with in their lives. She could not, however, see the issues in her own. At the time she came to me, she was financially overextended, had recently been let go from a job (the fifth in as many years) and struggled with a worsening heart condition. As we spoke and I learned more about her problems, her situation became very clear to me.
She complained that the people she worked with had it in for her and plotted against her. It had been the same in the last four jobs. The minority workers, the ones with the different skin color, different religion, and sexual orientation, were the ones who were at fault. She did just what was expected of her on the job but “they” were always trying to take credit for her work and get her in trouble by gossiping and showing off by going her one better. She never saw the fact that her lack of initiative allowed others to shine, or that her negative attitude influenced people against her. She never recognized that the extreme prejudices she held against any one different than she was poisoning her life and her soul and that the lack of love in her heart for her fellow man and woman was causing the heart condition to worsen. Her heart was actually shriveling up and beginning to die from lack of love.
She could easily see other’s lives and point out the issues to them, but could not see her own. As Jesus said, ”It is easier for a man to pluck the splinter from his neighbor’s eye than to remove the beam from his own.” Some people never even see the beam.
A friend of mine in jest stated that she had completed all her life’s lessons and was just coasting to the finish. The truth is that if you are still alive and breathing, you still have work to do and lessons to learn. Not everyone is meant to have life altering work and to be a public person helping to save the planet. But every person can change the life of each person that he or she connects with on a daily basis just by smiling and having a kind word to say.
If you knew that the cashier at the gas station was going to die tomorrow would you have a kind word for him? If you knew that tonight was the last night you would spend with your lover, spouse, child, or parent, what would you say? How would you behave?
And above all, why would you wait until the last minute? The truth is that we never know what moment may be the last.
My husband’s cousin was to graduate from high school and I called long distance to speak with him before the ceremony. Michael had already gone out to the car but came back to the house to hear me tell him how proud my husband and I were of him and how we wished we could be there to share his triumph. I told him how much we loved him and then he hung up and went to graduation. He and his girlfriend were killed returning home later that night. How close I came to missing that last conversation and letting Michael know what he meant to our family! His mother told me later how special my phone call had been to him and how he appreciated my words.
It is never too early to tell the people that are important how you feel about them. Life is never too hectic to take a moment and say thank you to the many people with whom you connect. Smile at everyone you see. Take a minute and hold the door; carry a bag of groceries; do an unexpected kindness. Commit a random act of kindness. Learn to be humble and helpful and loving to all your fellow human beings.
Step back from your own life and situations and observe as though it was another’s. What lessons, what issues would you then see? Ask your higher self what issues and lessons you have left to learn and then be open to the information that you receive. The process of discovery will be amazing and rewarding, and well worth the effort.
Enjoy the adventure!
